Determination

All my life I’ve tragically subscribed to the idea that most of the time…I really just can’t!! When the ugly truth has been that most of the time…I really just won’t!! If things didn’t come easy, I wasn’t interested!! Nope, didn’t want any of it…at all! Wouldn’t even try!

All my life I’ve subscribed to the idea that most of the time…I probably won’t succeed, no matter what…So guess what?!!??! Shocker here…I simply wouldn’t try!!

I’ve spent most of my life feeling so afraid of the “what-if’s” and of looking ridiculously stupid, that I refused to “go for it” and see if I could surprise myself in the process.

I have been content with simply being mediocre!

(Wow…admitting that out loud…to all of you…stings alot more than I thought it would!)

I would have given anything to be this overly driven person who knew exactly what she wanted out of life and would have stopped at nothing to achieve it! I have always, always, always admired those types of people! I sit and stare at them in amazement…watching them work at their frenzied, overly-driven pace. All the while wondering where on earth and when..Oh GOD when…would I ever have the courage determination to be like them?!?

It makes me sad to know that I’ve settled. It makes me sad to know that I’ve sacrificed feeling the thrill of small victories, the satisfaction of knowing “hey, at least I gave it my all”, and the pride in accomplishing something simply for me.

wah.wah.wah. pity party overrr!

I’m done with all that!

There has been a substantial shift,

and

These “CANT’S” are FINALLY turning into “CANS”!

and the “plans”…well, they’re coming along very nicely!

Stay Tuned…

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